My script was flipped

I had a really nice welcome post to this new stage of the blog. Words were almost ready to be edited and published. They were fun and witty, carefully planned for weeks to ensure the content is relevant, consistent and attracts a good audience. But my script was flipped this weekend and I didn’t see it coming. Suddenly those words weren’t what I wanted to share with you. They were focused to make me look smart, funny and like I have my life together. {Insert a loud laugh in here because who does}

You see for years I danced classical ballet and the stage was my safe place because it meant I had the attention, the focus was on me.  I wanted the validation of others to feel good about myself. However, my need for attention is gone and that’s why I needed to start the blog in a different way. Because the stories I have and want to share while they happened to me, they’re not really about me. They are not about how I want others to see me but how I really am and how God is changing that.

There has been a transformation that has been quietly taking place for a very long time that only those really close to me know about. Things I don’t talk about openly because they still hurt and a seemingly nice comment ruffles my feathers more than I’d like to accept. But I don’t want to avoid those topics, I want to open those conversations and for us to extend grace between us knowing that we all struggle.

As of today there’s no real script or plan for this new stage of the blog. While that is uncertain and it’s not the place I’d wanted to be in because I like to have things under control and knowing what I’m sharing next and when, I’m going to leave the page blank, the pen right next to it and see how this goes.

Will you join me in this uncertain journey? My invitation to you reading this is that you follow along, that we take one day at a time and see where this goes. One thing you’ll find here for sure is God, woven into the things I write because I wouldn’t be able to do it any other way. Faith and what I believe in are what keeps me going everyday. I want you to know that whatever words come out of my mind will help us grow together. Whatever story I get to share with you will make you reflect on you own life and help you keep going. Whatever image I publish will open your eyes to the amazing world and the Creator behind it.

Life is uncertain and I don’t like it, but today as I share this with you I’ll embrace letting go of control, of my plans and see if the path we take will be better than I thought.